Heart breaking!!! =(

Today me and my family members went to visit my helper,Har jie.
Ok......you must be wondering why we went to visit her right?! Because she was admitted to the Hospital of HUKM (Hospital Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia) yesterday! O.O
I was shocked when I heard that she was in the hospital!!
Well....she was so stubborn that she just don't want to go see the doctor.
She did go see some chinese doctor but then she just refuse to go see "西医". So she ended up in the hospital.

When we reach the hospital and saw her this afternoon, I was really shocked!! Because she became so skinny and was very weak at the same time too! I felt my heart breaking when I saw her like this today!! =(

Really pray that she will be better later on!!
I pray that she will get well soon,God. Also pray that she will stay healthy and don't be so stubborn not to see the doctor when she is sick!! lol xD

Well...that's all....just a short post.
Get Well Soon oh Har Jie!!!! =)

Meaningless life!!!

Well.....these few days....I felt very sad!!! Keep on feeling emo and keep feeling like crying my heart out!! I'm going crazy all because of the problem I'm facing!
Maybe is not a big deal for all of u out there!! But I really feel sad because of getting rejected by my friends!

Haiz...I really feel like no one like me... like everybody is hating me and rejecting me!!!! T^T
I feel like all my friends don't like me!! I tried to change....but it makes no different! They like still don't like me and reject me?! (especially the so call "leader" in our group!!!) I don't know! Maybe is just me who thinks that way! Who knows? But seriously....I just feel that they are rejecting me!!!!!!!!!!
I really feel like no one in the world cares about me!! No one like me as their friend!!!!! =(
Poh Yee also like that!! Everybody also like that!!!!
Why are you guys like that?! What did I do wrong?!!!! What went wrong between us?!!!

I don't want to be left out!!! But you all just seem like you don't care!!! I know I can be very "fan" at times...but I just wanted someone to talk to!!!!! Is that so hard?!
I hate it now!!! I really wish to go back to where me and Poh Yee are still good friends!!!
Now we look more like a stranger than a friend!!! Is like there is a thick wall between us!
I know u can make new friends!!! But can you also talk to me?! You are like only talking to them and left me all by myself there!!!
I cherish you as my best friend...but I don't think you think of me as your best friend!!
I don't know what happen to us when we say we are gonna be best friend forever!!
Why must my life be like this?! I really wish I can go back to the past....maybe then all this willnever happen and I won't be suffering from sadness!

The other thing is....I'm kinda starting to don't like Ping...I dunno y!! Just feel very 不爽 when I'm around her!!! Everything is so wrong now that it make me so unhappy!!!
Why the friend I cherish most left me?! I feel so miserable and lonely without you!
Life is so meaningless without you as my best friend!! Really wish that we are still like last time playing, laughing and sharing secret together. But we will never be like that because the pass will never return!
I really shouldn't put so much hope on you when you say we are gonna be best friends forever!! It just hurts more when our friendship become like this!!
Haiz....did I mix into a group that I shouldn't be with?! All of the sudden/lately....I feel that they all are so fake!!! That they are not the true friends I'm looking for..... =(

Haiz....I hope that I faster graduate from school....I don't feel like seeing them or going out with them anymore. Seeing them just makes me feel sad because I can't mix in!
So I really hope I can faster graduate and then find another best friend!!
Really hope to find a true bff and I also want to find out the meaning of life since I feel my life is so meaningless!! =/

Argh!!! I'm feeling emo when today is Olympic day!!! lol Haha!! xD
Well.....look at the bright side. Maybe is a good thing that I'm not joining them. I guess God wanted me to focus on my study more. It may lead me to a better future?
Oh Well...I'm sure there is a reason this is happening!! =)

Finally!! Is done!!! =D

Yay!! Finally!! My art project is done!!!! lol~
It is suppose to be past up on Wednesday...but then I today only finish doing it!!! Hehe *guilty smile*
So after school.....we went to KFC and eat lunch. (To belanja King Sum for helping us so much with our art project!! Thank You ya!!)
Actually...we wanted to eat Pizza Hut....but then there was a lot of people...so we went to KFC instead! =)

After we had ate KFC......we was having a "group meeting". We were talking about the bad habits and bad characteristic we all have! (I have the most bad habits and characteristic) lol xD
Oh well...I guess I really not a very good friend to my friends =/
I'll promise I'll try my best to change the bad attitudes I have =)
Remember to tell me when I do something wrong or say something wrong in time to time!! I'll change and try to accept the wrong doings I did! =D

Lastly....I want to say sorry if I say anything wrong or do anything wrong to my friends!!! Please forgive me!!!!

Yesterday was a happy day!! But then I was sad after that =(

昨天我们全部去了唱K!! 我们都玩的好开心,好疯喔!! 本来我也玩的很开心...但是因为某人而弄到我不开心起来了 =(

我不官她有没有看到我在我Blog写什么...但这是我的blog...我爱写什么就写什么!!!!!
首先,我觉的她好过份! 我知道我那时后也有错...但是你用不用在这么多人面前骂我??!!!!!!! 你知道那时被你骂...我有多hurt吗?!! 你跟本没想过我的感受!!!!
当时的我真的很不爽你也很不开心. (你那时一定也很不爽我吧?) 我在回家的路上还哭了.
被你骂的滋味真不好受!!!! =(
这几天为什么好像都被你睁对?!!!!! 我真的不知道明天见到你的时后要怎么面对你.... *sob sob* T^T
I feel left out all of the sudden...I'll feel myself totally useless!! Like no one will ever remember me as a friend to them T.T Feel so sad!!!!!!! =(

Swt!! I got a lot of "F" this term!

Haiz...so sad la! This term exam...I did worse than the 1st term exam!!!! =.=''
I really dunno how am I going to show my report card to my parents.....sure let both of them nag.
Haiz!!! *shake head* what to do?! I guess is my fault for not studying very hard also.....If I study hard....I think I will get better grades! Today I was kinda unlucky too....I kinda got scolded by my art teacher. Lol~!!
I don't know why....I don't feel like drawing or learning or listening to what the teacher say during art class. I like no more interest in art!! Is Boring!! Hahaha!! lol
I feel like dropping it...because we need to do project.But I don't think I'm gonna drop it la!! Cuz it will help me pass my SPM!! This subject is important if u are really weak in other subject! Teacher also say Tuesday that day want to see what we have draw.Die la!! I haven't draw finish it!! =X Haiz!!! =(

Let's not talk about arts!!! Is getting me an headache!!!
Well... today Moy Lien ask me u got write diary everyday? Then I answer....I don't write it but I blog!! lol! Then she ask another question saying....if I want to read your blog can?! I answer yes!! Come to think of it....I don't mine people reading it....but then sometimes I scare my friends saw the things I write about them and then they don't like it!! I thought of it and then I was thinking this is my blog!!! I like to write what I like to write!! Don't u think so?! O.o
So.....I don't care if they see what I've written here!! lol!!
IS MY BLOG!! I LIKE TO WRITE WHATEVER ALSO CAN!!!! =P
If they really feel uncomfortable of what I've written...then later only see how ba!!! lol~ xD
Another thing is I don't care got people read it or not!! Is kinda private too!! So...I just write all the things I feel like saying inside my heart!! =)

Well....trial is coming,moral needs to do notes and latihan!! =.=''
We change the time table again!! Everything is crashing down at the same time!! Hate It!! Haiz....but life must go on!!! Even though everything is crashing down all of the sudden...I'm still blogging and facebooking and stuff like that!! Aha!! I got addicted to facebook games!!I really like to play the Basket Ball game and also a game call Crazy Taxi!!! Is fun!!! If you got an account at facebook....u should go play these games and see!!! Is Fun!!!! lol!!
I play until my hand also pain!!! Kakaka!!! X)

Ok....blog until here loh!! Kinda sleepy aready....my eyes are getting tired and lazy.....
Tata everyone!!! =)

*Cry....Holiday is gonna end soon!!! T^T

Woah!! One week has past....now left 3 days of holiday!!! How sad!!! I don't feel like going back to school man!! Class Tambahan ended yesterday!! No need to wake up early in the morning adi!! Yay!!!! I have nothing much to do at home....just so bored la!! Haiz~

Let's see.....what did I do during this past week. Erm....I have class tambahan for 3 days last week...then on Sunday 1st of June, me and my friends went to Sunway Pyramid!!
I bought a pair of slipper! Me and Poh Yee also bought my friend's birthday gift!!! I hope she don't see this post! If not.....she know what are we all up to! Then it won't be a suprise anymore!!
So ya....we went shopping then ice skating! It was not that fun though.....cuz a lot of people....and I just skated like few rounds then we have to go adi!! Haiz.....hope next time got more time to skate la!! =/
I really want to go Sunway Pyramid again!!!! I want my comic!!! T.T
I've been searching for it online....but I can't find it!!!! =( Really hope to go there again!!!!!! So I can't buy my comic or maybe go there to skate or shopping again!

Well.....I have nothing much to say. Just hope the holiday would be longer...but I bet it will be kinda bored staying at home and not going out!! Time really flies....is like so fast! One week past already. Sad la!!! Hope we can go out 2moro to cc....I dun want to stay home!!!! I want play High Street 5!!! This game not bad!!! Is quiet fun!!! =)

Happy Birthday To You Yoochun Oppa!! =)

Happy Birthday Micky~!!! Hope u will have a great day!! Must be healthy and happy. Hope everything is going well for you and the other members!! Love you!!! muakz!! Take Care!! =D