Meaningless life!!!

Well.....these few days....I felt very sad!!! Keep on feeling emo and keep feeling like crying my heart out!! I'm going crazy all because of the problem I'm facing!
Maybe is not a big deal for all of u out there!! But I really feel sad because of getting rejected by my friends!

Haiz...I really feel like no one like me... like everybody is hating me and rejecting me!!!! T^T
I feel like all my friends don't like me!! I tried to change....but it makes no different! They like still don't like me and reject me?! (especially the so call "leader" in our group!!!) I don't know! Maybe is just me who thinks that way! Who knows? But seriously....I just feel that they are rejecting me!!!!!!!!!!
I really feel like no one in the world cares about me!! No one like me as their friend!!!!! =(
Poh Yee also like that!! Everybody also like that!!!!
Why are you guys like that?! What did I do wrong?!!!! What went wrong between us?!!!

I don't want to be left out!!! But you all just seem like you don't care!!! I know I can be very "fan" at times...but I just wanted someone to talk to!!!!! Is that so hard?!
I hate it now!!! I really wish to go back to where me and Poh Yee are still good friends!!!
Now we look more like a stranger than a friend!!! Is like there is a thick wall between us!
I know u can make new friends!!! But can you also talk to me?! You are like only talking to them and left me all by myself there!!!
I cherish you as my best friend...but I don't think you think of me as your best friend!!
I don't know what happen to us when we say we are gonna be best friend forever!!
Why must my life be like this?! I really wish I can go back to the past....maybe then all this willnever happen and I won't be suffering from sadness!

The other thing is....I'm kinda starting to don't like Ping...I dunno y!! Just feel very 不爽 when I'm around her!!! Everything is so wrong now that it make me so unhappy!!!
Why the friend I cherish most left me?! I feel so miserable and lonely without you!
Life is so meaningless without you as my best friend!! Really wish that we are still like last time playing, laughing and sharing secret together. But we will never be like that because the pass will never return!
I really shouldn't put so much hope on you when you say we are gonna be best friends forever!! It just hurts more when our friendship become like this!!
Haiz....did I mix into a group that I shouldn't be with?! All of the sudden/lately....I feel that they all are so fake!!! That they are not the true friends I'm looking for..... =(

Haiz....I hope that I faster graduate from school....I don't feel like seeing them or going out with them anymore. Seeing them just makes me feel sad because I can't mix in!
So I really hope I can faster graduate and then find another best friend!!
Really hope to find a true bff and I also want to find out the meaning of life since I feel my life is so meaningless!! =/

Argh!!! I'm feeling emo when today is Olympic day!!! lol Haha!! xD
Well.....look at the bright side. Maybe is a good thing that I'm not joining them. I guess God wanted me to focus on my study more. It may lead me to a better future?
Oh Well...I'm sure there is a reason this is happening!! =)